Friday, November 12, 2021

2021 Housekeeping Updates

I made a bunch of little updates to my games over the past few months!

Both Kikai and Expanse suffered from a game maker bug that made them run at 60-80% speed on a lot of machines. Both should be fixed now! If you tried these games out before and they didn't feel quite right to you, maybe give them another shot. I still think they're very fast smooth fun action games. I'm PRETTY BITTER about this bug compromising a lot of player experiences, but at least it's fixed now.

Atop the Witch's Tower now runs in-browser on the itch page via the Zeta emulator. This feels a lot smoother to me than running it through DOSBox on the archive dot org page. Thanks a ton to Asie and Dr. Dos for the help getting this set up -- I'm very pleased to make this cute fun story more approachable to new players.

I tweaked how movement works in Spider's Hollow, a fix I've been putting off for about five years. Basically the game state won't increment when you try to walk into a wall anymore. It feels a lot smoother and better to me now. I have a lot of affection for this game 'cause I learned a lot about my creative voice making it, and it definitely informed ATWT's development a lot.

I hid Hummingbird Lovers Psychic Supernova and My Wish for You from my itch page. This is something I'm very wary about doing -- please note that I'm never removing the game links from here or the timeline page. I don't ever intend to destroy past work I've fallen out of love with. But I just kept feeling a twinge of annoyance seeing them on the page. I didn't like the idea of new players stumbling onto them and assuming they represented the rest of my work. My Wish For You is a cute silly in-joke and I'll still link it occasionally. Hummingbird Lovers I have a more complicated relationship with.

I co-developed Hummingbird Lovers with my ex-wife. I was in a creative dry-spell at the time, and she encouraged me to release it even though I wasn't fully happy with it. It's the only time I've released a game before I was satisfied with its vision, and it's not something I intend to do again. I have nothing but respect for devs who put out lots of unfinished-feeling "sketches" like this game. Doodling that way can be a kind of joyful and enriching formal experimentation. But as of now that's just not how my brain operates; I can't be satisfied doing that. I'm here to tell stories.

That it shares a song with one of her extremely on-the-nose favorite movies from near our split is just icing on the cake. I don't like the game, I don't like thinking about it, bye. 

Wednesday, July 28, 2021

Facets v1.1 and Wayward


Last Friday I released the v1.1 update of Facets and Facets’ new prequel novel, Wayward. As per usual, you can download them for free on my itch. I think they're both some of my best work, so if you've enjoyed my previous stuff please give them a look.


The v1.1 release of Facets contains several changes. There's now a "Prepared Mode" you can select at the start of the game. If you do, the divers will bring extra items into the dream (20 potions, 20 bombs, 10 mega-potions, and a dream catcher). You can also pick between Active and Wait mode in the menu. Wait Mode freezes the battle while you're selecting your characters' moves, and it makes the fights slower and easier to parse. There's a boss guide included with the download, along with maps of all the dungeons. I also changed the title screen (I never liked the old one), made the insta-kill dream catchers penetrate boss "barriers", and slightly lowered the HP on a few facets.


There are three core axes along which some players could not parse Facets on release. Many were put off because the fights were very fast; it's hard to parse what's happening on top of quickly selecting your moves. (As Sraëka-Lillian points out, RM2k3's battle engine sometimes makes attacks overlap in ways that add to the confusion.) Some had trouble navigating the dense mazes. And some were too intimidated by the resource management, by the idea that you could use too many items, get to the end of a two hour game, and be wholly unable to win. Whatever axis you couldn't enjoy engaging with the game on, my hope is that these tweaks allow you to customize your play experience to your liking.


I don't regret releasing Facets the way I did. But now I've released a continuation to the story I'm very proud of, and I'm ready to invite more players and friends into this world.



I started drafting Wayward around October of last year. The most essential parts of the story came together quickly and joyously. From there, I had a fun time filling in the necessary build-up and connective tissue, and fleshing out the big beats. I especially loved writing the cool fantasy action (I channeled a lot of Brandon Sanderson and Fate/stay night energy specifically) and the cute gay romance moments. I think it's a really nice story and a fun breezy read (totaling about 36k words), and I'm excited to see more friends respond to it.


I'd come up with several ideas for stories in Facets' world since the game's release, but this was the one that felt right. I think it's because Wayward's story is sweet, cathartic, uplifting -- all the other follow-ups I'd considered were even bleaker than Facets, somehow. I think I had to grow a bit as a person to write the successor Facets called for. Facets was about the feeling of being slowly killed inside your heart; Wayward is about what a way out of that feeling might look like. I needed some distance from my own drama to really understand what that way out could be. I think that makes it an interesting and worthy follow-up to my most personal game.


I've polished it up as best as I can (I've put as much work into Wayward as I have any of my previous game projects), but I know Wayward's prose still bears some of the aesthetic tells of amateur web fiction. I like that, because I think it's disarming, the same way the all default art look of Facets is disarming. I also think amateur web fiction is an extremely cool, valid, awesome format. I've loved freeware games for most of my life, because making art outside the constraints of traditional game publishing allows for more vibrant, personal, often extremely queer modes of expression. I know self-published web fiction works the same way, and I want to read and create more of it the way I have games. 



A lot of the above sounds very serious, but one thing I want to get across is that Facets and Wayward were both made to be fun. Facets is full of dense mazes and hard boss fights and tragedy because those things excite and captivate me in other stories. Wayward has lots of big character catharsis and tense spell-blasting fantasy action because I think those things are rad as hell. 


My intent making these stories (or any of my work) was never to give my friends a homework assignment or unpack my baggage -- it was to make something moving and thrilling and delightful. I think I succeeded. I think both of these stories are rad on their own, and I think taken together they're a legit super-impressive creative achievement. I'll always look back fondly on the time I spent with these characters in their awful familiar world.


One down, two to go!



Wednesday, April 28, 2021

OMORI and Storytelling Shorthand

 Endgame OMORI spoilers

Content Warnings: suicide mention, some pretty grisly violence

I like sad stories. A whole lot of people do. I think it’s viscerally fun to experience intense negative feelings within the safe space of a story. It feels good to get worked up over fake people suffering in a book or on a screen. It’s a kind of emotional roller coaster; a tragic end can be just as moving and satisfying as a happy one. Crying literally releases endorphins.


Some folks empathize with characters in their stories so hard they can’t engage with sad stories. It gets too intense for them, they can’t deal with it. I think that’s totally legit, even if I obviously don’t feel the same way.


OMORI is a sad story. It’s a riff on Mother-style RPGs. You spend most of the game in the dream world of a boy named Sunny. Most of the dream world is light and cute and fun. But -- and you probably know how this goes already -- there’s something dark bubbling under the surface. Something happened to Sunny. And the journey of OMORI is slowly piecing together what that something was, and how to move forward from it.


It’s a game about untangling trauma. It’s a very rich tradition. To name some that were instructive for me: Silent Hill, Final Fantasy VI/VII, Xenogears, Yume Nikki, Problem Attic, Trails in the Sky the 3rd, LUCAH: Born of a Dream and countless visual novels and other text games all touch on the idea to varying degrees. OMORI is part of the specific subset of those games where parts of the game world itself literally represent the inner psychological turmoil of the protagonist. 


(You could argue that many classic games focused around exploration have a lot of the same psychological edge, they just don’t make the setting explicitly a dreamscape. I don’t think a game needs to take place inside someone’s mind to be about trauma in a spatial sense, it just helps make things nice and clear.)



So, you play around in Sunny’s dream world. Every five or so hours you leave the dream and spend some time in the real world. And it’s there you start to piece together the larger story. It’s revealed less than ten hours in that Sunny’s sister Mari, a very nurturing and kind presence in the dream, is dead in real life. 


I was a bit relieved to see this dropped on the player so early. The true end route in OMORI is about 25-30 hours long. I knew A Reveal was coming, because I’ve played games like this, and if the reveal 23 hours in was “his sister died a while back and he’s sad about it” I would’ve rolled my eyes. Nope, things are much more nuanced and miserable than that.


Again, you probably know how this goes. You spend more time in the dream world. You go back to the real world for little interludes, and more about the larger story is revealed. Things get more and more sinister. The horror flavor gets more and more pronounced. Dream denizens allude to some unspeakable ugly truth that you mustn’t discover.


The dream’s artifice collapses. For a few hours, OMORI becomes a straight Yume Nikki riff. Instead of cute little Mother worlds, the spaces are overtly abstract and psychological (although not quite as abstract as Yume Nikki). The dread gets deeper and deeper.


The truth is revealed. I knew something was coming the whole game. But the reveal of what that something is still surprised and disturbed me. It somehow managed to be way more awful than I expected, without tipping over into feeling unbelievable and unearned. It’s very well-done. The specific nature of the reveal is the reason I’m writing this essay, but we’ll get to that a bit later.



The last couple hours are all about parsing together a way forward from that unspeakable unnameable awfulness. The reveal is that OMORI isn’t a game just about trauma and grief -- it’s also about guilt. The kind of guilt most of us will hopefully never experience. Where you’ve done something utterly reprehensible that can never, ever be undone, and you somehow have to move on from that.


The story explodes into mesmerizing, soul-rending catharsis. Sunny stares down his own self-loathing, his own suicide instinct, and finally starts the eternal work of forgiving himself. Because OMORI is about giving yourself permission to live when you feel you have no choice but to die. 


It’s meticulous and mature in its build-up and sustains its last notes for exactly as long as it needs too. OMORI doesn’t flinch from the ugliness of its subject material. It doesn’t luxuriate in the violence like pornography either. It hurts the player just enough to make its climax soar.


I’ve played a lot of games with moments like this. But after finishing OMORI, I wasn’t sure I could name a single one that landed these big moments quite as hard. Sunny’s story is going to stick in my heart for a long time.


Because this is Sunny’s story, first and foremost. Aubrey and Kel and Hero and Basil all play a part in it. Mari too, of course.



We're always, always using shorthand when we tell stories. It's inescapable. You paint one piece of the scene closely, and leave other parts implied or barely sketched. You're always choosing to fill in one character's perspective, while leaving another's less fleshed out. The act of storytelling is always choosing what to show in the frame and what to leave out.


Shorthand isn’t something to shy away from. If you tried to fill in every detail of the world of your story, you’d rapidly wind up with something unwieldy, extremely long, and not much fun to engage with. You always have to leave some things implied, unstated.


It’s something to embrace, willfully and mindfully. That second part is important, because when you rely on shorthand without realizing that’s what you’re doing, you can unknowingly say something ugly. Because shorthand self-perpetuates, like a virus. People grow up experiencing stories that use a certain shorthand, then tell their own stories using the same tools and symbols.


We don’t know too much about the internal world of Mari, Sunny’s sister. We’re deliberately left in the dark about it, but it’s clear that Sunny’s trauma has something to do with her. In one of the first real world scenes, she takes the form of the one-eyed specter that haunts Sunny throughout the dream. The game wants us to suspect there was something evil or just off about Mari. It’s instrumental in the game’s building tension.


We do pick up some things about her. She plays the piano. She has a romantic relationship with Hero, Kel’s brother. She makes delicious cookies. She saved Sunny from drowning in a local pond. She’s extremely sweet. 


In the dream world, Mari functions as your save point. She lays out nice picnics at a bunch of different spots throughout the dream, and whenever you find one you can save and heal up by eating a tasty meal Mari prepared. You can also just hang out with Mari, and watch cute animations of all your friends playing around.


About ten hours in, we find out Mari is dead in the real world. All of your friends are pretty gutted about it. Her death is what led to your friend group splintering apart, some years ago. The real world sections of OMORI are about slowly piecing together that friend group again, seeing how all your friends reacted to Mari’s death in different ways.


About 20 hours in, we find out she killed herself in Sunny’s back yard by hanging herself under a tree. It adds an extra layer of understanding to why everyone’s so cut up about her death. No one knows why she did it. Which is just how it goes sometimes, tragically.


About 25 hours in, we find out the truth.


If you’ve played games like this, it probably won’t be that big of a surprise. Sunny murdered his sister. In an angry moment, likely spurred by tension over their upcoming piano/violin duet recital, he pushed her down the stairs in their home. She hits the ground in exactly the wrong way and dies. After crying for a while, a plan emerges to avoid getting in trouble. He stages a suicide. Sunny drags Mari’s corpse out behind their house, ties a jump-rope around her neck, and hangs her from a tree.


The murder may have been an accident. But the violence he does to her body afterwards is calculated and deliberate. 


We don’t know much about Mari, ultimately. Because the story isn’t really about her. It’s about how bad Sunny feels for the violence he did to her. It’s about finding a way forward from grief, trauma, overwhelming guilt. The story landed for me because, even though he did something extremely awful, I want Sunny to find a way to live. I don’t want any child to think there’s nothing they can do but die.


Mari is, ultimately, shorthand. The story’s catharsis depends on making us feel Sunny’s guilt as acutely as possible. Making us feel culpable for murdering his sister and violating her remains is certainly an effective way of getting there.



There’s something pernicious about this, right?


I can name several other games about trauma, grief, guilt with this exact plot turn. Where the story orbits a man’s guilt for hours and hours, slowly crashing inwards. And then finally, the reveal: he killed a woman that was important to him. In all cases, the woman in question is only characterized in broad strokes, because her story isn’t the one that actually matters. What matters is how bad the man feels for hurting her.


To get more general with it, I can name many, many games about someone being very sad because a woman they liked was hurt. Trails in the Sky SC has a particularly funny example where in two back-to-back chapters, we find out two separate male characters, both deeply wounded, have suffered because different women they cared about died. Both have almost identical flashbacks. It’d be comical if the writing wasn’t so strong otherwise. Locke, Cyan, Setzer, and Shadow in Final Fantasy VI all have their own special flavor of dead woman backstory. In these stories, and in many stories like this, the women in question are only loosely defined.


These aren’t stories about violence against women. The violence is just shorthand, a narrative device, a tool to get us where the story needs us to be.


This isn’t some kind of sweeping moral judgment. It’s an observation of an ugly pattern. 


It’s certainly not an original observation. I realize I’m jumping into a conversation people have been having for decades, centuries, with varying degrees of nuance. But OMORI’s take on it is particularly striking to me both because it worked so well and because the violence Sunny does to Mari is so unbelievably intense. Emotionally it feels about one step removed from a story about a rapist’s journey to self-forgiveness. 


I don’t think the game’s evil for a couple reasons. Sunny’s a child. There’s a sense that he doesn’t understand the scope of the evil he’s committing, not until well after it’s done. And the depiction of the violence, for me, did not cross the line into feeling exploitative. It gets close though.


I like sad stories. I want to see characters I love hurt and bleed and die. I want them to get put through the fucking wringer, and then either triumph over or succumb to despair. I want suffering. Because sad stories are how we prepare our souls to deal with the endless trials and despairs of real life, and because sad stories are fucking fun as hell.


The nuance here isn’t about whether an individual story is evil for using the shorthand. It’s about pointing out that the shorthand exists, so that we can be conscious about when we engage with it. Maybe there’s a slightly different story we can tell, one that doesn’t reach for the shorthand of “a woman they liked suffered” when it needs a reason for a protagonist to feel bad. 


And maybe we should be extra-careful telling stories about men who hurt women. Stories about their guilt, their trauma, their suffering, and not the suffering of the women they hurt.


Our world and culture are shaped by men who hurt women. They define so much of our art and the discourse around it already. It’s a poison that’s seeped into all of us; it’s inescapable. And when we tell these stories, it’s at least in part guided by how that poison’s affected us. 


So, let’s be mindful about it. Let’s be mindful of these patterns, of how we live in an ugly society that reduces women into objects, and be careful about doing the same in our stories. Let’s try not to let the poison control us.



Tuesday, April 13, 2021

Irons in the Fire #2: Observations on Scope Creep


Let's do another projects update! The last one was pretty fun. It's like I'm making new content without actually having to release anything!

Over the last month or so I've had a number of nice creative epiphanies regarding my ongoing projects. All three of them were getting a little intimidating to me -- I was struggling to actually visualize the path to finishing any of them.

Scope creep is something every hobbyist artist deals with I think. You get an idea and you start fleshing it out in your head, maybe you even start making something. But in the process of making the thing in your brain, it turns out to be more work than you thought it would. And while a lot of that work is fun and energizing, a lot of it doesn't spark the same kind of creative satisfaction.

I think the way forward for me as a hobbyist creator is to scope the project around maximizing the work that's FUN for me... and minimizing the work that isn't. Because when I really critically think about the stories I want to tell, a lot of the not-fun parts I'm dreading aren't actually necessary at all.

I've cut lots of not-fun-to-make game chunks from my outlines in the past. I've never once regretted it. Mostly this manifests as thinking I need to do an elaborate intro or ending cutscene for a game and then 98% through dev realizing I don't need or want one. Quarantine, Fugitive, Frog Adventure, and Kikai specifically all had plans for big cutscene beats that ultimately just weren't necessary for those stories.

Her Lullaby, Atop the Witch's Tower, Facets, and Expanse all came together pretty easily because nearly every part of each game that I worked on was creatively exciting to me. The stories were all important to me, but the medium I was working in was cool too! I'd never seriously played around with Ren'Py/VN language, ZZT, RPGMaker battles, or traditional arcade shmup structures before. I was constantly making joyous formal discoveries making these games, and their stories evolved to accommodate and incorporate those discoveries.

I have to care about the story I'm telling, sure. But I have to care about the language I'm telling it in too. The process of making the thing can't be an obstacle in the way of having a finished story -- making it should be the fun part!


Mystery Visual Novel

I have a finished first draft of this, which feels wild and rad since it's the biggest prose thing I've ever worked on. I'm editing chapters now and feeding 'em to a couple test readers as I go, and it's been super-fun and fulfilling. I like working with words and I've done very little fiction writing the last few years. The whole project's gotten a bunch of long-neglected synapses firing off for the first time in a while, it's really nice.

The epiphany moment with this one was realizing I wasn't really excited about any of the VN-specific language stuff -- in six months I didn't put a single word from my big draft into Ren'Py. It was all still sitting in a google doc. Even after getting a cool Higurashi-style presentation template from Polly, and a couple pieces of gorgeous test art from two good friends I really wanna work with on something in the future.

I got a friend to test-read the first chapter. He liked it! It was the first time anyone had looked at the story, so it felt really good to get some validation. And that's when I thought "boy it'd be nice to have this done in the next couple months instead of, MAYBE, sometime late this year."

So instead of a videogame... I'm just making a little book instead! I think I just felt insecure about the idea of putting out something that was JUST my words. I thought fewer friends would care if I put out a book than a videogame. That's probably true, but who cares! I thought my writing wouldn't be strong enough to stand on its own without music and art. That could be true too. And who cares! If I care enough to finish it and make it as strong a story as I can, whether or not I'm an "objectively skilled" writer yet, someone else on the planet will probably get something meaningful out of it.

It was gonna be a kinetic VN with no choices already, so making it just a book doesn't really change the story at all. But Afterward was also a kinetic VN -- that game did a ton of stuff with the presentation that excited me and helped the story. That there were no VN language tricks at all in my head that felt essential to this story is maybe another sign letting go of the medium altogether was the right call. Maybe sometimes words are enough.

The story's a prequel to my game Facets. It's about how Lacy and Alyssa (two important characters from that game) first met. It's gonna be sad and scary and cathartic and gay. It's a lot like Facets, but I think the fundamental vibe and ethos are a bit different, since I'm pretty different from the person I was when I made Facets.

It's a little weird to write a non-interactive prequel to what is by far my hardest game. I'm looking into ways to make the story of Facets approachable to more of my friends. I think I want to do a v1.1 release that fixes a couple bugs, adds an ATB wait option, and maaaaaaaaybe adds an Easy Mode. There's still a part of me that doesn't like the idea of a difficulty select for this specific story, just on a visceral aesthetic level, but since the game's been out for three years I feel like I can afford to be less precious about it.

If that all works out, I'll release the v1.1 version and the book at the same time. Facets' three year anniversary date is coming up soon, I'll shoot to have everything done by then.

I can't guarantee you'll like the book. All I can promise is that I'm bringing the same level of care and love to it I've brought to my game projects. If that sounds exciting to you, maybe give it a read when I'm done!


Collab action explorey game

Y'all I just love making big videogame maps so much. I like arranging thousands of tiles on a big dumb grid and seeing a world come into existence in front of me. And it's different from just drawing a pretty picture -- tiles on a game map are imbued with formal meaning by the player character's verbset. So seeing a bunch of carefully placed tiles, and knowing they were all put there to interact with a player's play and psychology in a certain way, and knowing -I- put them there... it's just heaven.

I've made some FAT GORGEOUS maps for this game.

The epiphany part of this was realizing how terrified I was of all the unfamiliar tech in this game. It's made in LOVE, and all the actual engine coding is in Lua. I think if I was in a better headspace I would've had fun digging around the engine and learning all the code stuff, but unfortunately I started work on it only a few months after having covid for six weeks when my brain was pure mush.

So I finally realized I could just ask for Toby's help on all the hard tech stuff! I'm done with my part for the time being -- once I stopped being terrified of all the complicated stuff I thought I'd have to do later on, it was a lot easier to finish my maps. I'm real excited to help tie the full thing together when the time comes.

Give Toby's games a play over here!! They've released a ton of good games already, and they're also currently wrapping up a big mega-project they've been working on for literal years and it's gonna rule. And then sometime after that you'll get to play this cool metroid-y game I helped out on! Now's as good a time as ever to jump into their backlog of rad work!!


RPG explorey game

I was ready to let this one go. I still might be honestly.

It was just such a massive vision. One big island, made up of six by six maps, each of which was sixty by sixty tiles. AND a bunch of turn-based combat design and character progression. AND five dungeons. AND a pretty in-depth story.

If I return to this one, I'm slashing it down aggressively. I don't want ATB fighting, I don't want dungeons, I don't want a big portentous narrative. The maps are the part I'm excited about, so I want to refocus the project around them. I still like a lot of my ideas for the story and fighting, but they'll work just as well as part of a concise dedicated dungeon crawl game down the line, if I feel so inclined. Better to focus on what's exciting me Right Now and actually finish the project then get lost in the weeds tying a bunch of disparate ideas together.

I still feel like I need some kind of fighting and character progression, because I want there to be resistance/structure to exploring the maps. Blocking specific pathways with hard monster fights and making the player accrue resources to beat them is one organic way of shaping a top-down world like this. Since I'm not interested in adventure game puzzles for this story, it's the approach that makes the most sense to me.

Honestly I've thought from the beginning "I wish this was like Ys or Hydlide". Those games had the balance of simplicity and resistance I'm basically after. But I didn't think I could program that in RPGMaker, and I certainly didn't think I could code action game bosses that were suitably ostentatious to match the Epic Story I had in mind.

But if I didn't care about having an epic story, if I let it just be a light silly game, maybe a streamlined combat system was an idea worth revisiting. And while making an Ys or a Hydlide in RPGMaker still seems beyond me, I could actually picture the (VERY cute) system from For The Frog The Bell Tolls working nicely with RPGMaker events.

Three hours of fiddling later, I had this. It feels good and right. I'm pleased with it. I might be excited to work on this project again, maybe.


I'm like most people on earth in that I'm stretched pretty thin most of the time. I work a full-time job, I have people I'm close to I like spending time with, I have other interests I dedicate a lot of myself to. If I want to be a creative person, I need to find ways of being creative that fit in around everything else going on in my life.

That means I can't force myself to work on projects I'm not enjoying, because I over-scoped, because the fun parts of creation are out-weighed by the not-fun parts. When I say "I can't" I mean it literally -- my body will not let me work on art if I'm not enjoying it. I don't have enough energy for that. So instead I spend months dreading the stuff I "have" to do sometime in the future, and I let that dread poison the rest of the creative process.

Maybe this is a naïve way of telling stories. Maybe continuing to chip away at projects even when they aren't satisfying to work on is the mark of a real, disciplined artist, and I'm revealing myself to be a hobbyist pretender. If so, fine. At least I'm having fun again.

Facets Spoilercast with Rayven

Art by Rayven!

My friend Rayven played through my game Facets on their Twitch recently; I had a ton of fun watching the playthrough! Afterward they invited me onto their stream for a spoilercast/interview and picked my brain about the game.

You can listen to the interview here. It was a blast -- I love talking about my games, and Facets is particularly close to my heart. I yapped a bunch about the dev process, things I love about it, and weaknesses in its perspective I'd like to address in future games. Give it a listen!

Thursday, October 15, 2020

Irons in the Fire

Hi there! It's been a bit huh? I hope you're hanging in there okay. 

I've done very little creative work this year, like a lot of folks. I'm trying to be gentle to myself about it. I contracted covid in June, and while the symptoms weren't too serious, I took a full six weeks to test negative and finally leave isolation. It was pretty traumatic and miserable!

I did contribute to the SMPS Game of the Decade list. This is our best and most expansive list project ever -- everyone was allowed to contribute up to 100 games, which means there are a LOT of oddball non-obvious picks. I think it's a lot more interesting than comparable lists from big games sites. Give it a read! We also did a long live podcast counting down the top 100 games on the list. You can listen to that here.

I don't usually talk much about in-progress creative work. I'm fickle and often drop projects that aren't working out for whatever reason, so I don't like feeling socially "locked in" to certain projects. I also just think it's self-indulgent -- I'd always rather hear about finished projects from a dev than see pretty gifs for something that might be finished, someday, maybe.

That said, I think I'm entitled to be a little self-indulgent.

RPGMaker explorey game

This project started off as a sort of indirect Facets sequel. The idea was that you'd play as a bunch of dead people going through dungeons in purgatory, including Alyssa, and there'd be sad Persona-y setpieces where they'd confront their regrets. I finally stopped work on it 'cause it was just really goddamn bleak.

However, I'd already started working on the first dungeon, which was going to be a forest/mountainy maze. I really loved what I was doing with the maps. I thought about making a game that was just one big forest/mountain/cave dungeon (all tiles handily baked into RPGMaker 2003), and what kind of story would suit that. 

After a while, I figured out the story I wanted to pursue. Then I experimented in RPGMaker and figured out some neat aesthetic ideas, and finally some nifty combat/character progression/navigation rules. Then, early this year, I made over a dozen huge detailed maps, about a third of the ones I'd need for the blown-up scope of the final game. It's really fun to run around the maps and explore. Most of my level design work is pretty abstract and gamey, so it's nice to work on a game that feels like a real place for once.

Facets was a taxing Yume Nikki/SaGa 1/survival horror-type game, a kind of game I love. This one's shaping up to look a little more like Skipmore or certain Falcom games: big pretty maps to explore full of grass and trees, backgrounded story, nice music, actual leveling and character progression, not too demanding. It's a kind of game I adore, and it's completely different from any of my past work. If I can land the story I have in mind, I think it has the potential to be really special. 

I stopped work entirely on it shortly into quarantine. And right when I was starting to get my groove back, I got covid. I'm working on other stuff now. I want to finish a few smaller projects before jumping back into my next big RPGMaker opus -- it's just too intimidating for where I'm at right now. I know it'll still be there for me when I'm ready.

Collab action explorey game

I'm really excited about this one x) My friend Toby Alden invited me to contribute a "New Game +" remix map to an action/explorey game they're working on. The base game is already basically finished (and excellent), now it's all up to collaborators like me to finish our contributions and help Toby's good work shine as bright as it possibly can.

I think this game's gonna be really good, and I'm excited to be a part of it! Toby has a fantastic backlog of work you can play here. Go enjoy it if you haven't already!

Mystery visual novel

Crediting this one entirely to reading Higurashi for the first time (after adoring the show ten years ago) and getting super-energized about visual novels and stories in general all over again. (Higurashi is really good. The first game is currently free on Steam and GOG, and it's a very exciting satisfying journey on its own. Give it a look!)

I shouldn't include this one 'cause I'm not too far into it, but I've got a pretty decent chunk of the first draft done and I'm REALLY excited about it. If the draft comes together the way I want, I'll start work with an artist friend or two and get a real game together. Please look forward to it!


Thanks for reading! Rest up and take care of yourselves friends. The next couple months are gonna be... a lot, probably.


Friday, August 23, 2019

Expanse


I made an arcade-style shoot-em-up! I've wanted to for ages; it's one of my favorite genres. I've made shmups before, but never the kind with lives, score, separate stages, all that good stuff.

It's called Expanse. My goal was to make an action game more varied than my past work, so it has a lot of different enemy types and set-pieces. It took about two months to make, and I'm very pleased with how it came out!

I released it about two weeks ago. My players seem to enjoy it a lot. The main game is gentle by shmup standards, but still pretty tricky. There's a practice mode so you can drill any stage you've reached in the main game. I hope you give it a look!

Current high score belongs to Polly!